Can’t say I’m very happy. Bad hangover today. Xmas and New Years is a blur. I feel like a total loser. Well, I’ve definitely been losing the battle with the bottle, but to be honest I haven’t even wielded my sword against it. I’ve been an all too willing participant. But I do plan to taper down and be alcohol free by Wednesday or Thursday this week and join in to the “Dry January” pledge that is quite popular over in the UK. I can do a few weeks sober, I think. And then maybe forever. One day at a time.
Don’t tell me I need to go to rehab. I am seeing an addictions counselor, at least. IF alcohol takes me down and I end up losing my job, then I’ll qualify for the government run program and then I WILL willingly go into rehab. I don’t think that that’s going to happen, though. I am optimistic that 2017 WILL be a happy new year, will be the year that I get free from this beast.
May we all be, or continue to be, free. May the light of grace shine upon us all.
Nelson
P.S. Thanks to Beththesobergirl for posting today after a long absence…motivated me to write today as well, thank you…
One Drunk's Tale 
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Hi Nelson,
I hope that your week is going well.
Donna
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Been there, done it. Numerous times. At some point, it will stick. Never give up!
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Do you know how many people on the interwebs would love to see you succeed in not picking up a drink for a month because they believe you are worth it? We get how hard it is, that’s why we are here
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I’m rooting for you. It’s difficult when your mind is so trained to do certain things at certain times. From those who are successfully sober, it sounds like you truly have to retrain your mind and begin new habits.
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Ugh. Been there before. Hang in there, at least you are trying. Don’t give up
If you’re trying to achieve, there will be roadblocks. I’ve had them; everybody has had them. But obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
~Michael Jordan
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Only you can do it Nelson. Even Rehab won’t work if it is not what you want, Amy Winehouse could testify to that. Take one day at a time. Every day that you don’t drink is a gift for your poor body.
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Sometimes the stars align and everything seems to fall into place. With a few weeks’ momentum, you could be off on the best year of your life.
Toasting you from here, Nelson.
xoxo,
Shawna
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The only way you’ll be free “from this beast” is to stop drinking….It’s not “if alcohol takes me down” it’s matter of when if you continue to drink.
with hope,
overcoming
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The U.S. also has a Dryuary campaign over at http://dryuary.org/wp/ if you’re interested. Nelson, I hope 2017 is full of long awaited, much anticipated and better than ever expected changes for you! Happy New Year!
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Hang on there!
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